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Hello.

I’m back after many months of not blogging, for a whole variety of reasons. There was life before blogs and there’s life after and for some reason, I lost the habit I had for a while in between of writing ephemeral mini-essays atttempting to connect daily life with a poem.  And for some reason, I’m inspired, today, to come back to the practice. One I enjoy, I seem to remember.

And how I’ve enjoyed today!  After a lot of screen time this week, I came home after some morning errands, and was struck by how warm it was. Not just ‘mild for the time of year’ but turn-your-face-to-the-sun-and-breathe-deeply warm.  So, I thought I’d do a bit of gardening, tackle a buddleia that was shooting skyward and remove some of the blanket of ivy creeping over the front wall and down towards the house. A robin kept me company only an arms length away and the ivy was busy with bees.

The volume of foliage was bigger than I expected so that meant a trip to the recycling centre. It was quiet so a worker there helped me unload and he too stood smiling with his face turned up to the sun.

When I got home, it was time to switch on the computer but I didn’t.  It seemed a pity, while it’s dry, not to cut the grass again before winter comes, which meant raking leaves and fixing the cable, and the rhythmic pushing and pulling across long, lush grass, this time accompanied by the blackbirds who live at close quarters. I’m ambivalent about gardening and partially agree with whoever called it ‘housework outdoors’ but today, perhaps because it was unplanned and I felt such intimacy with the creatures sharing this suburban plot, it was pure pleasure.

Poems?

The simple phrase ‘winter sunlight’ echoed for me today. It’s in a poem I love and often share with groups, about gratitude, aging, tranquility and what might lie beyond (silence, for the speaker in this poem) – Elaine Feinstein’s Getting Older.

Another, a longer extract this time, kept coming back to me, from Tony Hoagland’s The Word:

as if you had a friend

and sunlight were a present
he had sent from someplace distant
as this morning—to cheer you up …

And finally, a question in Mary Oliver’s The Summer Day,  – on a line all on its own – emphatic and challenging – Tell me what else should I have done?

Off now to open the email inbox which no doubt will have some clues as to how else I could have spent today.

10 Comments

  1. caroline Carver November 29, 2015 at 1:52 pm

    I reallly enjoyed this Vicky, thanks so much. Here in Cornwall it’s the opposite kind of day, stormy and cold and rainy, with enormous gusts coming that make me grateful I’m not at sea today. Not physically anyway..

    Look forward to the next one. Love c

  2. Victoria November 29, 2015 at 2:04 pm

    Thanks Caroline! Windy here today – the blog is a few days old as I grapple with my new website! Love to you.

  3. Ann Hazinedar November 29, 2015 at 2:42 pm

    I’m delighted you are back! I have been missing your posts more than I realised.

  4. Marian Green November 29, 2015 at 5:26 pm

    Welcome back Victoria. Thank you … I hadn’t come across the poem “Getting Older” before. I can really relate to it.

  5. Brigid Sivill November 29, 2015 at 10:42 pm

    Oh Vicky I missed your blog a lot – so glad to read it today and wrote and printed the Elaine Feinstein and pinned it on the wall – sometimes it’s hard to be grateful for all the good things.

  6. Monica Suswin November 30, 2015 at 11:07 am

    Good to have seen you on Saturday Vicky! I have to say I like getting older and enjoyed the poem. It is as I feel. And gratitude for one’s life is a blessing in itself . . .

  7. Victoria November 30, 2015 at 10:33 pm

    Thank you for warm responses! Nice to know you are all out there. x

  8. Maggie November 30, 2015 at 11:39 pm

    How lovely to receive this – love the new look – and three wonderful poets.

    It was warm as we walked in Blean Woods today – in a part we haven’t visited for several years. The contours were so familiar and we felt echoes of many walks with dogs and the boys playing ‘hunter’, running uphill in muddy ridges, stamping over bridges (where Billy Goat Gruff had definitely been hiding) and there was a remnant of an old rope that had been used to fly across a deep dark water hole – it was a walk through past and present – another blessing about getting older…

  9. Jenny Alexander December 1, 2015 at 5:17 pm

    Lovely to have you back – I was missing my poetry fix!

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